In His Light

Have you ever wondered how all your children turn out so different? I mean they are usually all raised the same. With the same values, by the same person. And in my case I have 3 completely different people. Not that I want them all to be clones! But come on!!! Individualism is one thing, but sometimes it is downright ridiculous. My oldest daughter and I fought like crazy while she was growing up, after she was grown we became very good friends.  She lives in Florida now and I hardly ever see her, seldom get to talk to her and pray constantly that her and my grandchildren are okay. She is a nice young lady, but she says things in front of me and uses language in front of me that I NEVER would have disrespected my mother with. I just don't understand, she wasn't raised with those words. I guess that is what being away from home does for you. My second daughter and I probably had the least in common when she was growing up. She gave me fits. Not that she did drugs and stuff, but she was a school skipper and a drinker. She still drinks now and I pray that God will take ahold of her and make her put the bottle down. She is a wonderful person! She doesn't smoke, prays and believes in God, and she is raising someone else's daughter as her own. She is a great friend to me and many others. Loves her older sister unconditionally even though she can not understand how she can distance herself so far from the rest of the family, and she misses her terribly and I know it hurts her that her sister doesn't seem to miss her at all. Now my youngest daughter is a whole other story. She cares only for herself. She lived with a man for years, had 2 beautiful children, gave them away, and has now decided that she is a lesbian. She knows how God feels about this, but I guess she thinks her carnal pleasure is worth an eternal damnation. She lies about stupid things and forgets to tell people about the important things. She left yesterday to go out of town for 10 days and forgot to tell her dad and I that she was going (and she lives in our house). We are raising her daughter and my sister (God bless her) is raising her son. She has pretty much nothing to do with either child and wants to sign away any rights she has to them so that she won't have to pay child support.  You could ask this child if it was raining out and she would tell you no when it was pouring. I love all three of my daughters, but that youngest one is more defiant now then she ever was growing up. Unfortunately I have had to ask her to move out. She is not a good influence on Sammi, and she has started to faunt the lesbian thing in our face and in everyone else's face and I will not have it. It is time for her to move on and me too I guess.

May God bless you and keep you.

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